I am literally holding this together by a cotton thread. I am the primary earner by a long way, we have a big mortgage, my car payment is ridiculous but with me working and us together we had enough for a good life. My job is gone my H is only interested in what he has left to spend on OW and my kids haven't got a clue and I want to keep them innocent for as long as possible but I can't do that. No matter how much pain I feel right now it is nothing compared to thought of the pain they are going to feel when he sits down in his euphoric state and tells then that we aren't going to be a family anymore. As a Mum you never ever want your children to experience any physical or emotional pain, I know you have to but when they cry you cry. In any other circumstances I can protect, rub it better, say the right thing to them but I can't protect them from this and it is tearing me apart.
Me 46 H 39 M 11 T 14 S 10 DO 8 ILYBNILWY 11.06.17 Separate rooms 11.06.17 ILW OW A ongoing 12.06.17 Kicked H out 23.6.17 H came home 20.8.17
