SJW, you're spinning.. your snooping on him, your tracking his movements and playing mind movies of worst possible scenarios. You really need to try and stop all of that, and keep your focus on you and your kids.
You do need to do things like communicate financials, but you want to try and not consider his reactions.. right now it's about you, not him.
Do me a favor, visit my thread, and read my last post, it's a quote from TXHubby on how his sitch played out. It dragged out for 2 years when he was doing what your doing, and the 3rd year he looked at himself, did what he needed to do and that's the year that his sitch turned around.
M - 9 1/2 years 5/5/16 - Bomb drop - 3 week EA 10/31/16 - We sold house 01/10/18 - D Finalized