I know I'll be okay but it's not the life I want. And yes I know we don't always get what we want...
I don't need H to survive but I want him in my life. I want the man he's capable of being. Not this version. Yes I have a lot of wants.
I don't want to be a single mom. I don't want to do this with a newborn.
I read through all of trains threads last night. Her feelings are exactly how I feel. I felt like she was writing speaking for me. Because those are all the exact same emotions I am feeling.
Wounded - the answer is pretty much nothing. I'm doing things with the kids. I did go out Saturday night but that's it. I started the gym last week but stopped due to some breastfeeding issues. Right now I don't want to do a damn thing to be honest. I take the boys to do things on my days off but that's about it.
