Glad you updated. Happy belated bday! Lady friends are the best! Nothing more therapeutic than time with girlfriends, I say. Another silver lining in my messy sitch was that I learned who my real friends were (and also who wasn't). When chit hits the fan and you need to cry about the same thing 100 days in a row, true friends are there and keep you afloat. It will never be forgotten.
I think it was nice of him to send the flowers. A simple thank you is more than enough. I don't know what it means either, but I don't see a useful reason to speculate. I think you are starting to detach because you were able to not speculate and over analyze. It's perfectly okay to accept what's in front of you and not attribute too much meaning to it. That's healthy and good.
In terms of your new feelings, I can remember having those first moments. My goodness what a relief! The first glass of cold water on that hot, hot thirsty day! I would agree that it is a sign of detachment. Welcome it. Embrace it. Also know that if it wanders off for a bit, that is okay too. Nothing is smooth or linear in this process. That's why we call it a roller coaster.
I tend to think those initial feelings of detachment can feel so strong because 1. they are new and the relief is so great, 2. after so much heartache, you naturally build a wall and become numb. Thats fine too; your heart needs protecting. We can look at war refugees and think, "my gawd, how did they survive and are still going on?" People (all of us) are more resilient than we can ever know.
If you believe you can continue to detach, you will. If you doubt yourself or feel sad again, that is okay too.
You will be great because you ARE great already!
Blu
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela
