I'll pray for you and yes God does exist. We are told often that God rejoices when one of us comes back to Him.
I'm not a pastor or a scholar - I personally believe that if we test God we will be disappointed. Faith is about not seeing the results in the here and now.
We are all happy that you are finding your strength. Pray that God will help you with the changes you are making.
God is real and he is with us.
M:50 W:53 MR:20 D:21 S:17 S:11 BD-Sept 2015 Suspected PA Sept 2015-Confronted W & OM Dec 2015 Actually EA In house Sep:Jan/16-May 2016 W moved out:May 22 2016 OM-Intro Oct/17-On scene July/Aug 2017