First time here, part 3

[leahsue]

PLEASE my friends on here, help me with these new emotions.

IDK if it was b/c of my birthday........ but beginning last night, and stronger this morning, I truly do not think I care what he does or doesn't do. Is that a bad or scary thing for me?

I JUST DON'T CARE. I know I can make a good life in front of me, that does not include him.

Since I didn't respond to his call or flower stuff yesterday, except to say "thank you", he will not contact me for a few days, or weeks. But what's scary to me, is that I DON'T CARE.

I want to love somebody, as a life companion, and have someone to enjoy what should be the best days of our lives..... but I'm suddenly wondering if it even needs to be HIM. I don't want to have to beg someone. And clearly he has other priorities right now.

I really think I may be free, from myself.