It's not negative at all Dawn, actually it was very positive, complimentary and very true. I would have liked to be friends with him if he wanted. Orginally because I felt empathy and compassion and yes, I did want to fix his problems. I got so used to being his confidant and the one he came to. I thought I could be of some help.
Why did I reach out now? It's hard to explain, but I feel like you couldn't have really cared for anyone you ignore like that. And I think I personally have gotten sick of people walking out and pretending like I don't exist afterwards. It makes me question everything.
But you are so right. I don't need him. So that's why when he didn't answer, I just said "screw it, I tried, now I know where I truly stand" Old Ginger would have pursued the reason. But truthfully, while I can feel hurt and sad, I absolutely don't want anyone in my life who doesn't want to be there and I have plenty of people who do.
And you are so right, ,my mind automatically goes back to not being enough so much that I can be erased. And that causes sadness for me. But then I realize myself and people lovely people like you help me, is that I have always been enough and it isn't my problem.
