So the W came over today to get her CPR card because she said her work would no longer let her work without proof of it. Haven't seen her in 3 weeks. She started touching my arms, playing with me veins (She administers radiation via IV so she was always playing with mine bc she says others are hard sticks). Just general flirting as we were and still are extremely physically attracted to each other. I could tell by the way she looked at me she is regretting her choices. I'm very stubborn but she takes stubborn to the next level. I asked her how was her life and she says pretty crappy. I know her like the back of hand and when she is wrong she will go to the end of the world not to admit it.
So when we see each other sparks kind of fly again. She has told me this before. She doesn't like seeing me for this very reason. I was doing really well with GAL and don't want to backtrack with new emotions plus our convos lately have been descent. I have not brought R once for about a month now. That from bringing it up almost daily, so the tension is definitely dropping.
So I guess my concern is, since our relationship was doomed bc of lack of affection and emotion from me, should I continue as described? Mild flirting, checking in, general talk.
Yes I read the book, and yes I distanced myself quite a bit. I feel my new activities are giving me a little pep, more than when we were together. I just don't want to backtrack from getting my emotions wild again. I was actually starting to enjoy me life without her but of course I would still like to reconcile. Trying to find that balance. Looks like each step in this brings in a new set of challenges.
M 1.5 years, her affair was before 1 year T 7 Years
