I'm sorry that you are still having those sad moments. I remember having those as well. For me, they would come at the most unexpected time
The NC contact can be frustrating. I know there were times when I would think....
- what if he is waiting for me to make the first step? - am I pushing him away more by NOT contacting him?
When I did finally end up speaking to him something he would say or do would upset me and then I would raise my voice and yell....not my proudest moments that is for sure.
I know you know that what you are doing is the right thing for you, but it sure does not make it any easier. I wish I had something that I could say to you to make you feel better
Please take care of yourself, and continue to let him figure himself out
