Wondering if someone can chime in. I am idk well over a year after BD, and PS. I am actually pretty freaking happy. There’s a pep in my step that was never there, prior to w or during. (say the co workers and acquaintances that knew me prior to things going south) My wife or what she’s up to no longer consume my every thought. I am here because I have a few lingering questions, when exactly will I stop “missing” my wife. I am aware I miss the W I married not this crazy selfish lady. I don’t miss her very often, and when I do it doesn’t last and the “missing” isn’t at like a 10…it’s more like at a 3/4. Haven’t been over a 4 in a while (I have a friend and we rate the amount of “miss” 1 being the least and 10 being the most) when will I be 100% ok? I do feel I’m indifferent, deff detached, but every time she sends a ridiculous email to my lawyer it just pisses me off. W is still crazy af, selfish, lying and manipulative, so why does that make me angry? I know little to nothing about her life and I’m ok with that. I don’t really care if she’s good or bad. But I do hope she feels guilt, and sorry (very unlikely) and remorse. I’ve read a few posts of how some on the boards are doing after some time and being ok with out the spouse, but they have kids so they still have to interact. My w and I have cut all communication except Divorce through the lawyer. Not sure if I’m making any sense though. I’m living, thriving, happy. BUT can’t help to feel like I’m still not healed, or like something’s missing. Any input greatly appreciated.
