The weekend has been a complete rollercoaster of emotions. From the devastation of anger and hurt on Friday night to a fantastic night out with the girls on Saturday night where we danced ALL night to coming back down to earth with a huge bump yesterday. He asked to come home and I told him that if he was continuing down the path with OW then he was not welcome at home he said he was and perhaps he should have made that clearer to begin with. How much clearer is taking her out for days out and away for the weekend this coming weekend???
I'm in limbo waiting to hear from my boss to sort out the work situation and really need to get that sorted and a line drawn under it so I can focus on me and the kids. I have asked for a meeting today or this evening rather than going into the office tomorrow, I can do without that humiliation right now. He is supposed to be contacting me today to let me know.
H wanted to take the kids to football tonight and last night I said no because I can't see him and these are the consequences of his choices but I have just text him to say that he can but he can't come in the house. I don't believe I should allow him in the house right now because this is his choice but is that the right thing to do? I could let him in and not be here but then why should I put myself out? I don't think we can really schedule until we have told them and I just don't feel strong enough right now to do that or am I just being selfish and don't want that additional nail in the coffin of our M??
Me 46 H 39 M 11 T 14 S 10 DO 8 ILYBNILWY 11.06.17 Separate rooms 11.06.17 ILW OW A ongoing 12.06.17 Kicked H out 23.6.17 H came home 20.8.17
