You are right. I decided to leave it as a non-issue. What am I going to do? People I guess don't have the same boundaires as we do, so they will cross them. She watches my daughter, is good to her, we were always pretty close, so maybe she thought I would mind. ANd I'll just get her back and buy her daughter her first bra! HAHA! Her daughter, by virtue of divorce is obviously not my neice. She is almost 4, and has been getting to know me a bit. exSIL said she would have her daughter sleep by my house one time (we live 5 minutes away from eachother). That meant something to me. So I am letting the bra issue go.
I decided to hop back into online dating. I finally joined match with WII in my head saying its annoying when someone has a profile but didn't sign up. So I signed up this weekend. I had some decent messages waiting for me. I responded apologizing for it to take so long to get back to me. My profile says "no, but it's ok if my partner has his own" to the do you want kids question. Yet a bunch of guys who definitely want kids are emailing me. I tell them upfront the truth. I refuse to get into that situation again. It wsa too painful. One guy seems pretty cool, 47, divorced, and didn't answer the kids question, but I am guessing at 47 its a no. None of his own. I answered his email, even though it was from a week and a half ago, hopefully he emails me back.
I have a confession to make. I texted FF last night. I saw a really funny meme that pertains to us and I sent it to him saying "it was too good not to share" He didn't respond. He has essentially erased me. I feel sad about that, but it's not rocking my world. I do wonder why he has done this.
His sister has posting a lot of social media, so I have been seeing him a lot on there. She plays little video clips, and he looks happy. I am happy he is happy, but then it makes me feel like maybe I made him unhappy. They went to a wedding Thursday night I was supposed to be his date to. He had a date. Sort of. It's his sisters friend and her sons babysitter. I think she just went along. But my heart skipped a beat a little. You can tell it wasn't a romantic thing according to the pictures. But then I thought, "well, she's young, very close with the family and cute" Maybe she would be a perfect match for him. I do wonder why I even care about someone (as a friend) who seemingly erased me. It's a good and bad attribute.
Good news is though, I am actually excited to date again. And I will say for anyone thinking about it, the people on match are the most normal so far. I got no inappropriate messages, they do send nice ones, they don't seem to be looking for just hook ups or text buddies. I am going ot try to remain hopeful.
Yesterday my friends and I were halfway ot our long awaited Pinknic on govenors island in NYC. We were all dressed up and decked out in our pink and they cancelled it do the rain and hour before the event, even though it was rain or shine. It ws beautiful out, but the rains has supposedly flooded the area. We were pretty pissed. But we made the best of it, spent some in nYC, went back to Hoboken, had a few drinks, and made it a good time. I am so fortunate to have those kind of friends where we make anything a good time.
Today, I am picking up D9 and we are going strawberry picking. It's a beautiful day here. Then I will come home and write yet another paper.
This is just my journal, which is why it's ridiculously long. I am doing pretty good though.
