Today is a rough day. Weekends always are. I'm getting tired of the game of him not knowing what he wants and me feeling like I'm spinning out of control. So I checked myself and went outside and did some lawn work. Went grocery shopping. Stuff that took my mind off things. I have a question tho. He says it's over. He says he is tired of the arguing, etc. so what do I do here? Do I continue to just fence sit with him until he makes up his mind. Or do i just push for the things I want done. Like getting the house out of his name, changing the house bills to my name. To show him that I am tired of the game and if he sinserelt wants to move on then this is what needs to be done. I had a flood in my basement the other morning. And I didn't even let him know. Because he doesn't live here so it isn't his issue any more. At least in my eyes it isn't. And he will get upset that I didn't tell him because he constantly wants to help and I just see him helping as him wanting to assuage his guilt over leaving. My 12 yr old son wrote is his year book that his dream is to have a loving family. That really hurt and I haven't been able to stop thinking about that comment since. I have told him that daddy and I still love him even tho we are no longer apart. He just shrugged his shoulders.
