I loved this entire post of yours! You're putting the focus on YOU, you're working to spruce up your appearance and attitude, you're setting goals for yourself, you're leaving H to sort his stuff out on his own. Well done, you are doing great!
Thanks!
And now a low on the roller-coaster. I admit it, the lull in hearing from my lawyer who heard from his lawyer was allowing my hopes up. It had been two weeks. I thought that maybe he was stuck and struggling.
Nope. Just got a message from my lawyer stating that his lawyer has been nagging him all week. Apparently H likes his lawyers like he likes his ex-wives...
So, ouch. This is all still really happening.
I also accidentally found a video of H on my phone. I was flipping through and didn't see what it was. It was from September, with him sitting with my dog in his lap, tracing small circles on her head and my dog loving every minute of it and struggling to keep her eyes open.
That hurt. Where in the world did that peace and caring go?
I felt attracted to him seeing the video. I talked myself down and was better, but now the naggy lawyer thing means that he's not at all stuck and he's pushing forward.
