Running from your pain is running from yourself and your issues. And it will get you in trouble. You have to work through it and take valuable lessons from it. It can very well be the case that you are not emotionally strong enough to deal with it whole ATM. But as you grow stronger, you will develop tools to deal with it and you can begin tackling various aspects of it. Make no mistake, you do have faults and it will benefit you greatly to work through them. You will also learn a lot of yourself during the process. Some aspects will be painful, but not nearly as much as avoiding your issues yet again.
You Sir, are an avoider. In your view avoiding problems makes them go away. It does not...