it was me basically agreeing with oh ok you need time. Take your time do what you want. I feel like if came off I was waiting for him.
I gave a lot of I don't knows
He talked about how we need to make ourselves happy. That we tried to make each other happy and we just can't make each other happy we need to make ourselves happy.
He said it killed him not to be around the kids. I said not enough for you to stay here as a parent.
I just was very flat and firm but I also feel like he knows I'm still here.
He said I'm not sure what path were going to take with our lives. I said no you mean what path you're going to take with your life.
I'm going to comment on this, then I'm going to bed.
What if you had said, " I am deciding what path I'M going to take with MY LIFE."
You and H are not a team right now. You aren't making joint decisions about your future. I think it's strong and confident for you to start making decisions about where YOU want to go, and he may or may not want to be a part of that.
But T0, you absolutely have to decide your own future path, and don't figure him in the plan. If he wants to run along beside you as you go that path, then good luck to him in catching up.
Wow. I need to take my own advice.
I think my anxiety meds are kicking in.
M-60 H-51 M-14 years BD 12/26/16 S 1/1/17
"First the pain, then the rising." Glennon Doyle Melton
