Rough day. Actually got some productive work done, though.

MIL had a heart cath this morning. Nobody had told me about it (she was in the hospital a few weeks ago and they found problems with her heart function, but I didn't hear about followup). STBXW texted tuesday night and asked me if D and I could take MIL to dinner last night. Responded "Yes."

Was pretty bad when we got there--we didn't end up going to dinner. I don't think MIL would have made it to the car, she looked awful. frown D and I just spent a couple of hours with her instead (D fell asleep after 30 minutes or so, though). Really worried about her. frown

Didn't see STBXW at all. Had to drive passed her house at 5mph twice (she and MIL live 200 yards apart on the same rocky rutted hillside) and wasn't even tempted to stop. I view that as a significant accomplishment.

I've tried to stop doing things for her. I would have D call her every morning and every night (but D almost never calls me on the weekends, I have to call her). So I stopped that this week. She can talk to D anytime she wants, but I'm not going to be the one making sure that happens.

Talked to GF for a while last night. Pretty sure that's the last time for the foreseeable future. Both of us agreeing NC is best, at least for the next month or two. Really sad about that.

I've said a total of seven words to STBXW this week. Really happy about that.

Just keep swimming