I know it's mostly this baby that makes me fight so hard. Because I don't want him never growing up knowing what his family together means. Not having all the memories my boys have. I know my hormones are still crazy. I am having hot flashes like crazy then cold anger then crying. One minute wanting to beg him to come back then the next wishing I never met him haha.
What does dropping the rope look like? I struggle between indifference vs coming off like a bitch that he thinks is controlling and punishing him. Last time he acted out and stopped giving me money once I started enforcing boundaries. It was a couple months of hell from him.
I already don't call or text. I only respond to kid messages. When he said goodnight and thanked me for having the boys call I don't respond.
I haven't asked him to do anything or asked about the future but I'm sure I'm radiating wanting him back. I remember Thornton I believe telling me last time that a man can tell when the woman is still pining for him even without saying a word
