My Story - Separated 1 Month

[bluMorn]

Not much to report. H and I still interact on average once a week, and interactions are pleasant, if superficial. I live in coastal Alabama, so we've been getting tons of rain. My yard is known to flood in a heartbeat, and in April 2014, there was a really bad rain and the house got flooded. We had to replace all the carpet. So, TS Cindy's bands have been dumping rain on us, and I was curious as to whether H would even worry about me or the house. Lo and behold, he just texted me to ask if I was doing ok with the rain, and hoping there wasn't any flooding. He even mentioned the dogs, who freak out over rain/bad weather. I said so far so good, and that I was using the rain to fill my pool. He said good, and I didn't text back after that.

Again, feels good to know he at least cares a little, but I really don't feel that he's getting any closer to me. One thing to note - he has been taking 75 mg effexor since Jan 3. Last week, he went to the dr and asked to get off of it because of side effects. They gave him 37.5 mg effexor and 10 mg prozac - he's supposed to take both for 14 days, then just the prozac for two more weeks, then come off that. Effexor has really bad withdrawal symptoms, so that's the reason for this. He has tried alternating days, which is what the last dr told him to do, but he couldn't handle the withdrawal. And this is someone who has withdrawn from heroin before (before I met him). The new dr (old dr was no longer there) suggested bridging with prozac. I hope it works for him.

Although looking back, I think he may have been in crisis for the last 2.5 years, his really erratic behavior didn't start until he started taking the effexor, and while he's always been an alcoholic, he became an insatiable drinker on the effexor. I'm wondering if this change will have any effect on how he feels and how much he reaches out. If he started taking the lower dose when he filled the prescription, he would be 7 days in. It'll be interesting to see.