ILYBINILWY - OW - what to do next

[SJW]

I slept fitfully an have woken p with that complete hollow heartbroken feeling. I told work last night I wouldn't be in I just can't deal with that and this something is going to have to give for me to focus on me and the children and getting through this. I think he does need to leave because seeing him and talking to him hurts too much. I think I need to work out finances today so he can have his independence, whilst that may facilitate his A it will only serve to antagonise him when he has asked me to do it.

I need to focus on what I can change, me, and let go of what I can't, him.