First time here, part 3

[leahsue]

Blu,
That was a hard post to read. And since we're being transparent, I'll admit the first time through I was saying to myself, ..... but this is not US. Blu doesn't KNOW H. By the end of the post, I realized how ridiculous that was. Of course you don't know us, but you know signs and patterns, just like it's so easy for me to read into other posters stories and see things repeated over and over.

I truly appreciate your candidness, painful though it was. And I think I agree with you about preparing myself for the worst. I'd much rather be prepared on that end, than have expectations for a good visit, and it be a visit where he ends it. I'm not sure how I can begin to prepare for that mindset. Any suggestions from you (or any other vets!) would be so welcome.

I feel a bit sick just thinking about it. But painful as it may be, I can't continue like this, so I'd just as soon face the music and begin to heal, either way.

If anyone is going to offer suggestions for my prep, I do really well with specifics that I can relate word pictures to in my head. I'm for sure going to use the one where all my friends on this board are peeking in the windows, all lined up in a row, whispering for me to STFU! That makes me laugh just thinking about it.