But at some point, your actions need to match your words.
Yes. I thought long and hard about that. That I've said this before. That I've said a LOT of things before and changed my mind.
I hit a bad place this weekend. I realized that I don't have anything left, no margin for error. If I let this drag on anymore, I'm in serious danger of losing my mental health, and won't have the ability to care for D. The stark parallels to my past tell me where I'm going, and I'm never going back to that place inside me.
It is at this point that I lose everything if I don't drop this rope. Am I strong enough? I don't know, but I'm going to find out.
