Leahsue, I'm sorry things feel bleak right now. I have those days, too. Its like being an amputee...you know you just lost a major part of you and that which made you feel whole. But you slowly get used to doing things differently until you can't remember how you did it before. The bigger the limb, the harder it is. And its about attitude. My father in law chopped off his ring finger on his dominant hand while woodworking, went back to work a few days later, and then once it healed, told people that finger always got in the way while he was working anyway (it actually did!). Much harder to loose the entire arm or a leg, of course, but although the people with that type of loss struggle, its the attitude that makes the difference.
You're right, as is your sister. You have freedom. I'm glad you are thankful for that because that is a very helpful attitude. But I challenge you to take that one step further, if I may? Create NEW things to be thankful for. You said you had freedom. Go out and test some limits...things you were/are afraid of; things you wanted to try, but set up your own (mental) roadblocks to (I'm too shy, broke, weak, old, awkward). Dig deep...it may be the mouses tail of a quick thought disappearing into a crack. Pull it out and really take a look at it. How can you try it? Google the ways. Then do it! I guarantee that you will either be thankful for the opportunity, thankful for the new "thing' in your life, or even thankful that you never have to do it again cause that was the most horrible thing you ever tried and it really s&*ked! But you'll have the STORY...and maybe even pictures!
You have freedom and are thankful for it, but what are you going to do with it?
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