Thanks ownit ... I am not sure what I want for now... I guess mainly to be happy regardless he is with us or not... I am doing well with the kids...today we went to a music festival and had lots of fun ... it is funny but for the whole week I had two of my married friends complaining of the frustrations in their marriage ... I tried to cool them down ... I don't think I can deal with any demands from a partner anymore ... I am in control of my environment there might be no place for him any more... I guess this is limbo land... I know I am still in control but most probably I will react one day .. everyday pass by I feel more detached and less thinking of how he is feeling or wether he is upset or not.., in my opinion he is not worth waiting for no more .. but the kids are worth me standing up until their father is in a better shape.


M 45 H 45
D1 12 D2 9
BD 04/14
Living two different state
Not officially separated