I don't know how to find ME right now. I feel so down and gross and just rejected.
I don't say that to come off as I'm feeling sorry for myself. It's just how I feel right now. I'm going to start going to the gym.
H is here right now and offered to stay the night tonight and Wednesday to watch the baby. BUT what do I do about him texting OW while he's here. I don't want to tolerate him being here doing that while he's in our home. Not sure how I say that or enforce that boundary without coming off controlling.
Anyway I'm just staying in my room doing homework. I said hey when he got here and he asked about something for the boys but that was it.
He and my mom talked on the phone tonight. She called me and said that H called her on the way over. He told her he didn't know what he was doing. She didn't ask. She just said she wanted him to know if he needed a place to stay he was welcome at her house and it would be a place he could take the boys. He just told her thank you and that he loved her and that he wasn't sure what he was doing. He left because he needed space and felt like all I was doing was pushing him.
I told her believe none of what he says. I know too well how it turned out before
