I am sorry this is happening. I wish I had some great words of advice or wisdom for you. It must be so hard with all you have on your plate: 3 kids, a newborn, postpartum hormones, grad school, and the constant stress of H, is more than anyone could handle. I think even if you feel you can do it all, there might be a compromise some where, and I would rather that be your choice, not a consequence of the circumstances. As you know being a nurse, stress and all that comes with it is very dangerous for your health. I fear you are under tremendous stress (including lack of sleep).
I like how 25 put it: what advice would your past self tell your present day self? It is very hard to make decisions when you are in the thick of it; you are in pain, spinning, and it may be too much to make sense of anything. Think about yourself at a time when you felt strong and confident. What would she say to do? Hang in there. Rely on the safe and loving people right now as much as you can.
Blu
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela
