I'm a very lucky person, but still fine tuning

[Coconut]

Now, all that being said... While I am not holding a candle in the window for her. But.... I would still meet at a table to find if there would be a way for us to find each other again.

Then yesterday (fathers day) I get a detailed email from her that felt about as contrite as I have ever heard her. Telling me how it was all her fault, how she wished she had tried, how every decision she has made since her walking away was wrong. The gist of the letter was asking for forgiveness, which I did forgive her quite some time ago.

6 posts apart, 3 years apart, and I have to say I'm intrigued.

I posted for a long time that I would never consider getting back with my WW, that if she ever approached me I wouldn't consider it.

Then my most recent posts as that I was like 99% sure, cause you never know until the opportunity presents.

I think I initially convinced myself that there was "no way I would even consider it" to protect myself and make me feel like I was in control. But distance and time, and a lot of self reflection on my failures in the M, has softened that stance a bit.

What we say we would do, in a hypothetical, is based on emotion and changes based on where we are in life at that particular moment, but what you said you would do really has no bearing on what you do when it actually happens.

It's often said that many people succeed in getting their WS to stop the craziness and come back, only to have the LBS walk away. I don't know what your relationship with her has been over the last few years, I see you have a D so I'm sure there has been some interaction, but I hope you continue to share your thoughts and actions on this. I think this happens to more people that you would think, and in my year here I've never seen it posted.

btw - I realize she didn't say that she would like to try again, but I definitely think the intention was to open a conversation.