Thanks for stopping by :-) Yes, the betrayal part is hard to get past. I have tried to tell myself tho that if this M doesn't work in the long run, it will not be because of that one hard time. It will be a less emotional, and more logical, decision. That's hard to do because his A (and leaving me for so long) weighs in on my thoughts, feelings, and decisions. It's just there.
Unfortunately, I would not say we are on a solid path. We were. Things have changed a lot in the last several weeks. I am thinking more about separation. So much has happened and it's getting hard. I have moments where I wonder what it would be like had he not come back.
I have no doubt that XOWs XH would know immediately who I am, even if I changed my name. My story is obvious because there are not many posters that are where I am today, with piecing. I think most posters come here during separation. I think for that reason people pay attention. I don't have anything to hide from him (or anyone really), it's just awkward.
I will continue to share freely. Just feels like a neighbor peaking in the window, but I leave the curtain open anyhow. lol.
Blu
“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela
