[/quote] No doubt this is all on me. I ALLOWED this. By not detaching, by still caring, by... still holding on to something, and I don't know what or why. But god, I do feel like that lab rat, being poked and prodded for perceived amusement without comprehending what it did to deserve it.[/quote]
OK, you may feel like a lab rat and your ex w and w have hurting you in their mind.
Believe it or not, they don't. it's a side effect of their own selfishness. They are doing what they want to get what they want, absolutely. But not to get off on your misery. It just feels that way.
No one is out to make you miserable on purpose. so take back your power when you are ready.
