Just. A quick post and I'll get back to both of you guys.
Zues - you say he is in immense pain and he cannot look at me judging him. Do you truly believe that because I'm not so sure I do. I haven't told him I'm done. I've never used those words to him. Actually quite the opposite... I said we want him here we appreciate him and we don't want to go through this again. It was terrible and painful last time and we don't want to go on that ride.
He still chose to leave. Also, how is he hurting when he's partying st a concert. Whavent heard from him at all besides when I text him if he wanted to stop by the kids were at my moms before he left... other than that nothing.
How is he hurting if he's seeing someone else and emotionally attached himself to her.
I'm sorry I'm just not sure I see it that way. I poured my heart out to him over the last three months. I kissed him made him lunch was sweet and loving the ONLY thing I did was about once every week or two say so what's going on with us. And it wasn't yelling or screaming matches it was me saying I don't understand how you don't know if you want to be in this M. What do you need from me to make that decision. What do you need to be happy. He could never answer.
Again - not trying to be negative I just don't know. The more I think about it is maybe he just cannot be the man I need him to and the man he was wasn't really him but THIS man he is now is who he is. I just don't know. I don't understand how he lies about everything. It's quite scary. Because I don't think he even knows how to tell the truth anymore. He lies about what time he goes to work. And he voluntary offers this information to me. It's not like I have asked him any questions since he left. I'm questioning my entire M. Who I've been sleeping next to. Hell im questioning if he was even honest when he came back after last time.
The thing is if you dislike me FINE ... but we do have a one month old. I feel so disrespected and angry for my children. How hard is it to send a text checking on them.
And what possibly could he be telling everyone at work that he left his family with a newborn baby. I just don't get it. I don't... we made this baby together and i can't imagine just walking out and not giving a [censored] about not helping care for him. And our older boys. To not even text them or anything. Just sad.
