In the end I told him I was popping out and went to see friends. I got back after a couple of hours and started to get ready as I was going out. I tried not to interact very much with H but got ready whilst he made the kids dinner. He came I the bedroom whilst I was getting ready and asked me for the third time in the day If I was just going out with the one friend and I said yes.
I went downstairs when I was ready and I knew I looked good and for the first time since he made his announcement last Sunday I actually felt good about ME! The look on his face was a picture and he told me how nice I looked. I went to say goodbye to the kids and my S told me I looked beautiful and D was like I love you hair Mummy. I literally strutted out of the house and had a brilliant night with my close group of girlfriends, realised that actually yes I am going to be OK and got home at 3.30am.
This morning I am slightly hungover but still feeling positive so hopefully it continues. I find it hardest when I'm with him there's an awkwardness between us and that's difficult to cope with but I have to get through that for the sake of the children.
Me 46 H 39 M 11 T 14 S 10 DO 8 ILYBNILWY 11.06.17 Separate rooms 11.06.17 ILW OW A ongoing 12.06.17 Kicked H out 23.6.17 H came home 20.8.17
