I'm Trying to figure out how to let go of seeing him as who he was vs who he is now
My dad said he was leaving all along. Ever since he bought the flowers for the girl and the motorcycle purchase. Everyone wants me to say F off to him and move on with my life but I dont want to I don't know how.
I feel so sad thinking of looking at my life divorced. Of this baby growing up not knowing us together.
I need to figure out how to stop being sad about that.
I know I need to leave him be and stop hair g expectations of him. But at the same time last time he left he lived the good life and never saw the kids except on his own time table and wasn't accountable for any type of schedule.
I need him to find his way back. I don't want to continue doing this alone. I'm just having a sad moment about this. He's at the concert we have gone to together for our last 3 anniversaries. How can he not remember the good times we had when we went there together.
And Zues - when can I say that about letting the dust settle? It's how I feel. Ow is not the time to be making permanent decisions... there is too much going on with the baby school work and all this stress... let cooler heads prevail. There are too many raw emotions. His mom told him that. He said he knew his decision was made and that it was over and done. Nothing would change his mind.
