T0, trying to control his behavior is not doing anything positive.

Even if "there is no coming back from this" which I am too fatigued to rehash you are right- he IS the kids dad. So don't do anything do drive him further away from the kids. Every comment you make and attempt to influence you make just infuriates him and makes him rebel.

I am sympathetic to the pain you are feeling. I just see a lot that you are bringing on yourself. When the pain truly gets to be too much then loosen your grip on H and on trying to force some type of resolution.

Sit with your child. Be appreciative for the food you have to eat. Talk to a friend. Post on other's threads. Honor your pain. And act with character. It won't feel better today, but when you do that you can at least feel good about your choices, and have faith that those choices will lead you out of this mess.

Good luck and hope there are a few good moments today.


Me:38 XW:38
T:11 years M:8 years
Kids: S14, D11, D7
BD/Move out day: 6/17/14, D final Dec 15