25yearsmlc 10 yrs later I File D (part 4)

[25yearsmlc]

Before I go into detail on KML/Own's comments -

I suddenly had a horrible thought given Ralph's recent actions.

Since it took some energy for h to call and cancel a policy I bought years ago, and am paying for, even in a greedy crazy mood it simply benefits no one to cancel it,

and only hurts me, and only if he dies...

I'm not saying I believe this, but could h be thinking of making an exit,

or is he just "insuring" that I not benefit from his possible death?

S31 said, and I'm quoting - "Dad's a candidate for suicide, mom... " (I suggested S31 call h's bff or h's brother, which is who s31 selected by saying "Maybe I'll call uncle M"...

so that's a sickening thought.

I THINK I'm mostly believing it's the latter - meaning that he's thinking "Oh, on the off chance I die, no way will evil stbX get a cent. I'll see to that".

but then S31 threw me off with his brutal truth.

I am exhausted from this emotional sick feeling. And I'm very tired of having it