* He wants to take her out for the night and away for the weekend - I have been waiting for him to do either of those things with me for a very long time so why not with me but with her. Anytime we do anything it's when I organise it but he made a comment about me having control of everything. I have asked him so many times over the years to take the control from me.
* He wants to do something for himself, go travelling in the future when the kids are older maybe with OW maybe not - so do I but we have 2 children and difficult jobs so not so easy, he says there's loads I could do - I work 80 hours a week minimum in 5 days including commute with 2 kids and a husband who until a year ago wasn't at home apart from weekends (army)
* 5 years ago I asked him to go to counselling because we were in a rut and he was going to Afghanistan for 7 months - he said we didn't need it
* 7 months in Afgan, 16 months later 6 months in Cyprus. 4 years between 2011-2015 he spent more time away that at home our kids were 2 and 5 in 2011 and I was working full time.
Tomorrow:
Having my hair done rare treat which has booked for ages. Food shop for lots of healthy nutritional stuff. I haven't eaten since Sunday but feel like I can now and want to get healthy, less alcohol and cigarettes. Speak to my personal trainer friend and see if we can either work some time in or if she can give me a very delicate programme, I haven't exercised for years. I told H in the week I was going out with a friend, I wasn't but I will get dressed up and go out even if it's just go round to a mates for a coffee, he doesn't need to know I'm not dancing the night away
Me 46 H 39 M 11 T 14 S 10 DO 8 ILYBNILWY 11.06.17 Separate rooms 11.06.17 ILW OW A ongoing 12.06.17 Kicked H out 23.6.17 H came home 20.8.17
