I appreciate the pep talk I really need you guys to keep me positive thanks.
LH19 you're probably right if and when the $h1t hits the fan with my WW I might be in a position where I don't really care... I must admit I L her with all my heart and although I write a good account behind the closed doors on my own I'm finding the whole experience extremely hard but that should come as no surprise to us on these boards.
I think what drives me deep down is my will to win and that I can't bare not to fight for what's right which is to give my 2 sons the chance to be brought up in a secure family environment. I don't want anybody to come to me and say I didn't do everything I could to reconcile my M.
My methods might be a bit off to some maybe and I know I might be in for a long road to recovery but what I am doing is allowing me some freedom from all the stuff that comes with a W who is in a PA. I work on myself and get better and better each day and hope she notices it.
If she's too clouded in the A to not notice I'm sure I'll still be alright in the long run.
Thanks guys again I truly appreciate it.
Keep fighting, be patient and who knows...
Mark.
DR'ing started March 2017
Don't blow the last bridge up from fantasy island, act "as if".
