H came over to see the boys. I went out and sat on the couch and talked like normal. My oldest won't even come out to see him.
I so badly want to say please don't do this to us again.
Seeing him makes it so much harder.
I don't know what I'm supposed to be doing I don't want lose him. I don't want him who he is but when I see him I see the man I love. That talks to me about his day etc.
