Jumping Rope

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So, after the wedding which I felt terrible during I decided to go out with a couple people to distract myself. It's been a nice distraction while I went NC. Didn't hear anything form her until tonight she texted to see if we could talk tonight. I called a bit later and she asked about my new job and how I was. End result and point of her wanting to talk was to talk about logistics of moving forward with divorce. She still doesn't use the word.

During the conversation she talked about how it's been "hard on her too". That honestly pi@@ed me off. It's hard on her? She made the decision to leave, to take her ring off so quickly, to not give counseling a chance, to not give the relationship a couple months and see what changes can be tried. You don't get it both ways. You don't get to say how hard it is to leave but not give a real reason. You don't get to say how hard it is but when anyone suggests counseling you say you are "fine".

Move out date is now set for early August. Not sure where I'm going yet. Just get more angry every time a life event happens and she's not there. She's still avoiding her friends and family, working more than anything else.