We had the mediation today or something like it. We had pretty much agreed on all the terms and just needed a lawyer put it into a document and file it. Nearly [censored] myself. Over the phone I was quoted a price of $75 and told today it would be $3500. Based on what we needed we got the price to the original price of the mediation. The document will be written up as a separation agreement not a divorce, but the understanding is that this will be the terms of the divorce once we are settled in new town. I'll chalk that as a small victory with a little more time on my side.
Interesting conversation on the car ride. Wife asked if I was excited. I told her not terribly, was she? She replied yes and no. She said she still loves me and wants to remain in a relationship but I didnt treat her seriously when she said I had a last chance in the R. She said she has been working hard the last 2 years on our M and feels I started 2 months ago (All true). I try not to put much credence in her words as she has been all over the map since our separation started.
I dont feel as bad as I thought I might have. I expected to feel like moping around but have kept busy with house projects.
I think it's time to detach like a MF'er and start working on me hardcore. I'll still see her frequently because of the kids but I will try not to initiate any phone calls, texts, or conversations.
I'm still as hopeful as ever and getting a better feel of how I should steer my ship. Thanks to everyone who has replied and to everyone who has posted in other threads. I appreciate all the advice and I am ready to surrender my way. Wish me luck.
