First time here, part 3

[leahsue]

No, JuJu, you're right. I've thought of this several times. If he and I were just beginning to date, no way would I tolerate for one second this treatment.

Sometimes I forget just how much support I DO have, from all of you, from my sister, from my 5 special girlfriends, and even my new neighbor texted this morning saying, Today's the big day, right? Praying for a great week for you. I texted her back and said he canceled. She showed up 10 minutes later at my front door with her 5 mo. old grandbaby (who she keeps during the day) and just sat and chatted while I soaked up some "baby loving". We have plans to do some day drinking when baby's mama picks her up at 2. So much to be thankful for, that I cannot afford to waste time being sad.

What I haven't told anyone though (well, except you guys) is that since H's email is still copied to me from back when we owned the business together, I got a change in his itinerary email where he's re-scheduled the flight to Monday, June 19th. He hasn't mentioned this to me, just said he had to cancel (b/c of more meetings!). So I wonder if I should just not let on that I know, and have plans to be out of town. I'm not sure that prolonging this visit will prove anything except to stall a face to face meeting. But it might feel good just to have other plans.

At some point, enough is enough.