Well it's over. I'm not going to get into elaborate details but I asked H to watch the kids Saturday for 2 hours so I could set up a study group for my big exam Monday. He said he couldn't commit that he might have to work. I said well that's ok even if I have to wait til later I could go at 5-6 pm. He said he might have to work at night. That's never true. He could work whenever as long as it's done by Monday
Well I found out he bought 4 tickets to a country concert in Miami on Saturday night. The same concert and venue we have spent our last 3 anniversaries together st. He said he was maybe going to go. Aka why he couldn't commit to watching them
Anyway I said if he chose to go and leave me with the kids that he was choosing to end this M. He had previously told me he wasn't going to the concert when he told me he his friends at work got tickets.
His response was that's fine I'm done anyway. I made plans to move out Wednesday after I drop my mom off
He said I ruined her trip here that I make him miserable
He said he knows I will always think of him as a cheater and I'll never trust him. I just said I was sorry I made him feel that way. I said I don't think that I know you're a good man. He didn't say anything. Just mostly that we needed to move in to our next step separated. He sounded very coached and was the coldest I saw him. He said he didn't make up his mind until tonight. That he wasn't sure until I said that about the concert.
I know that's BS.
I did ask him not to leave our family... he just said I don't know. Every answer was I'm done it's over or I don't know.
I'm going completely dark. Words can't even describe how I feel or what I'm going through. My eyes are going to look ridiculous in the office tomorrow.
He left tonight to go with his mom and said he will be there til Wednesday then will. Be moving into his friends house. He said we will figure out a schedule for the kids.
I will probably continue to post just for emotional purposes but I don't expect anyone to waste their time giving me advice.
