Its hard, its why i opted for separation after a few months of in-house DBing. I hope you find your own strength and its okay where it comes from. Dont beat yourself about it.
Me31 W31 M11yrs S6yrs 23Mar16-BD 9Apr16-W admitted EA w boss. 27Jun16-W Changed job and promised NC w OM. 14Jul16-Continued contact w OM.Start of Separation. 24May17-Divorced.