Thanks for the comments guys.. nice to see some people who know the feeling.
Man Hawaii was awesome... what a trip. If you have the chance to go, I highly recommend it. Got a bonus two days too! We had the house till Thursday but my flight was on Tuesday but they over booked it! I said if you can make my flight on Thursday afternoon I'll change... they did and gave me a $1000 voucher woo woo. I was just minus my luggage but who cares... I was in Hawaii!!
On another note, my anniversary is Thursday... second one without WW. I don't care though. Last year at this time is when WW started coming out of her fog. I remember she wanted to get dinner and the good people her encouraged me to politely decline.. thanks guys! I am not going to acknowledge the anniversary... doesn't mean much to me anymore.
On WW front, she picked me up from the air port and I saw her all three days this weekend. In Hawaii, I kept the texting to a minimum and only called her once. She was a bit annoyed but I mean it was hard to contact anyone back home because we were busy and the time difference. Anyway, on Sunday she came over in the afternoon and we chilled by the pool. It was OK. As she was leaving she burst out in tears... that was a tough one because I was not sure where it came from.
So I am just in a tough spot. I don't know how to deal with the anger I feel and get over the trust issue. I told her I have zero trust. Coly pointed it out in my posts... my tone is bad. I am not trying to punish her... but when I think about the things that happened (mainly the cheating years ago before we were even married) I just do not even want to see or talk to her. It really is walk away husband syndrome. But whatever, we will figure it out.
The good things are when we hang out... she says things like who are you?? Which is nice because I worked hard to dig deep and address certain issues with myself so I am glad she notices.
