Just had a big update today. This week I'm out of town for work. But before I left, I found myself discuss to my W about this limbo status we are in. Told her that I wanted to work on our MR and of she could communicate with me on what's going on in her head, it would help so much. Once again, nothing but attitude and her saying that she doesn't have to talk with me about anything. And also that we want two different things. She wants to be alone.
So I suggested that perhaps it was a good idea to separate so she could get that space if she isn't willing to move forward, because I no longer want to live like this. W tried saying that she didn't want to leave. But I continued to remind her that months ago she claimed to not wanting to be here. So I told that I wouldn't hold her back. I asked W to take this week to think about moving in with her sister or whether she wanted to make this MR work.
I finished by kissing her on the forehead, telling her that I loved her and simply walked off. W just sat there clearly stunned and in silence. During this time I am gone. I am making a serious point to detach and enjoying the comforts of this hotel. And have fun with the people I'm training with. No contact, unless she makes an effort to call in regards to actually wanting to know what's going on with me here. Any call to home will be solely for the purpose of speaking with S13.
Felt nervous afterwards, but I am starting to feel better about the decision. Hopefully this will serve as a wake upon call. The bad influence is still in town for another week before leaving to move with her H. And she was supposed to stop by the house after I left. So hopefully she isn't dropping any bad advice.
