I have read this post over and over. It makes sense the card situation is really how things escalated to here until the explosion erupted.
I am REALLY struggling on how to be warm when he treats me like crap. Didn't hear from him at all yesterday and then he strolls in at 930. I didn't say a word. We went out to dinner with his mom. He didn't say a word to me so I just was outgoing and talked with her and the kids. He chose to come home last night and not stay with her whether it was her telling him to come home or his choice I don't know but I didn't say anything.
I just feel like he has become progressively more cold and shut off to me. How do I turn that around and is it even possible? I don't know how to let go of when he hurts me by being disrespectful. He was mean last night when I needed to breastfeed the baby he was really short and rude and told me to just go get the car from the valet myself. So I just got up and did just that.
His mom really really wants to talk with him. I asked her not to. I think he will just feel attacked and cornered and it will make matters worse. And he will think I asked her to do it.
So anyway, not trying to sound negative but his actions show more that he is gone than not. The kissing and ILY I don't get because if he wasn't doing that there would be nothing tnwpuld be as if I were invisible.
He recently started taking steroid shots which he's never done in our 13 years together. So I'm sure his temper will be come shorter and shorter because I know the side effects of them.
I made plans to go take the boys away for July 4th I haven't talked to H about it but my dad said the other night H brought up that we were going away for July 4th asking if my dad could let the dogs out. I'm just like WTF ..
I'm just struggling to not let him hurt me with every time he treats me badly. He treats strangers with more kindness and concern.
