25, I was reading your post to me and was wondering if you have ever thought about writing a book? You have detailed so much here about your M, your life, your struggles, and the words just pour from your finger tips. With each post, I get another glimpse into your thoughts and feelings. If you wrote a story, I would buy it :-)

I could never marry a doctor. I work with a lot of them. While I like and respect most of them, it is also a lifestyle that makes it difficult to have a family, or more so difficult to prioritize family. I actually completed premed courses in undergrad and then decided not to apply to med school. I already had one child at that point, but felt like to be successful (or even gain admission), I needed to give so much of myself. It is a continual effort, and if the effort is not put forth, you will quickly fall beneath your colleagues. The ego becomes fragile in this world. I don't know if it's possible to ever separate work from personal life.

I haven't stayed caught up on your thread, but from what I know, I do wonder if you would be better suited to find a partner in life as generous as you are. He will be responsible for his relationships with his kids, but they will always have this awesome, dependable mom. My mom had 3 Ms, however I am not sure she found true love (compatibility) until she was in her 60s.

Blu

“Forgiveness liberates the soul. It removes fear. That is why it is such a powerful weapon.” – Nelson Mandela