Job, right you are on the AD thing. It helped, and I said I would do almost anything just to feel better, and this wasn't a huge sacrifice to feel better. I did well off of them when my life was going pretty smoothly. Kind of sad I need them when my life gets rocked so hard, but I realize how many times I've been broken and haven't used them, I'm just needing a little help these days.
I will definitely let you know about the book. it looks really interesting and relatable to me.
I did have fun at the picnic. The kids played the parents hung out, I love watching her interact with her friends. They all got yearbooks and signed them too. After we went to target and did some shopping. My nasty ex comes to the house to pick her up, asks if he could use my bathroom and then tells me as he is leaving he left a present for me and farted. Divorced and still have to smell his gas. I went to the gym and then came home, read and went to bed. Tonight is chaperoning the 8th grade dance.
Two funny/not so funny stories. I was in traffic on the highway on the way to work and a guy in a truck almost rearended the guy in front of him trying to flirt with me. Everytime he caught up, he would wave and smile. He was pretty cute too. I needed a self-esteem boost.
Then a chart I reviewed was a married man who went to Europe on business and got a massage with an oral "happy ending" he came in to the ED absolutely terrified he got an STD and thought he was going blind. I think guilt took him over. He will never be doing that again!
My mind has been spinning less and I have been a little less sad and much more like myself. But this morning FF was the first thing on my mind as I woke up. Guess it's just me missing him. And that is OK to do.
