Another thing I forgot to mention, H sent me a card for my b-day this year and also texted me on the day of my b-day. Last year he apologized for not sending a card, but still texted me. The handwriting in the card was a bit nicer than in some other cards he sent to me in the last 4 years, it’s like he put more thought into it, LOL.
bttrfly, we are kind of at a similar pace, haha. He is moving very slow in his MLC journey, and I’m moving very slow in my LBS journey. Sometimes I think what I could have done in the last almost 5 years, if it were not for going through this horrible experience… But… it is what it is. I will get there eventually…
peace, this is exactly what I came to realize. MLCer could eventually come around… or not… I've re-created my life to the best I could. I still have some struggles, but, generally, I’m in a good place.
Gwen, thank you for the encouragement! Yes, I think I’m one of those who never stop dreaming of a fairy tale… It doesn’t stop me from living my live and enjoying the time with my friends and family. I think H is missing out on a lot of this. I think the way my family (my sister and her family, my son…) treated him at the graduation should make him think… of he gave up on something that was worth of fighting for…
I just can’t come to the terms of one thing. The coffee that I made for him when he came to my house to fix his QB issues. I think I made the coffee that was too weak, LOL (it was the last scoop I had and I didn’t grind more coffee to fill up the pot... lazy...) I could have put more effort in it. Every morning when I make coffee, I think about it… and feel somewhat sorry for H… he wanted a cup of good coffee, and I failed to produce it… I really need to get over this, LOL.
For those who’ve been here for a long time and remember my story… I finally got my storage shed in the back yard fixed! A guy who I know from the vacation home place did the work for me. I had to pay him $400, but it is done now!
And, some more… I posted some pictures from my son’s graduation on FB. H was on a few of the pics. I didn’t give it any thought, because this was my son’s big event, and everyone was there, including H. So, next thing I know, his older brother “liked” the pictured and two days later I’ve got the friend requests from this older brother’s wife and daughter. I was thinking hard for about 3-4 days before I decided to accept the friend’s requests. I figured that I would give it a shot and if it gets too weird, I can always unfollow them, so I don’t see their posts (which could include comments to H’s posts, etc.) on my feed. So far it has not been a problem.
This contact coincidentally came at the same time when I was seriously thinking how I need to start separating the joint business with H…
My life has been very busy lately. I flew to another state with one of my former coworker and friend and another lady from work, to visit with two other former coworkers and friends for the weekend. I’m having a local neighborhood lady’s day at the spa this weekend, and then I’m going to my friend’s daughter’s wedding in a week or so. I’m actually looking forward to some alone time by myself after that, LOL.
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state
