Trying to stay above water

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So last night I got a text from my WH, at midnight, which is weird because I don't usually get texts from him. Especially after business hours. Anyways he was angry I was putting the bills in my name. He's angry that I went and tried to put my cell phone in my own name. Anything and everything came up. But everytime he said something I would ask myself the question. What do I want my end result to be? And will this comment or action bring me to that result? I felt empowered with that knowledge and strength to follow thru. I even threw in some appreciation comments so I could be his 'cheerleader' without feeling like a doormat. No idea what set him off last night.

Hi Henwen,

What you are saying sort of sounds like how I am handling things right now. My situation is probably the worst it has ever been. W is disrespecting the marriage by being with the OM whenever she chooses.

I'm choosing not to be her doormat but at the same time I'm not falling and acting like a doormat. I can still choose to be validating and positive and even kind. She has gone low but I'm not going there. I want to walk through this with my own dignity. I will come out of this on the other side with grace. "The loser now will be later to win."

Somehow as dark as it has gotten for me I can still find little things, songs, poems, photos, that bring me inspiration just to get through the day.

Hang in there.