My plan is to keep working on detachment. Haven't heard from W in three days. It's helping. When I'm detached (for however short a time) I can see the truth: there are literally no upsides to a life with W. None. That makes my heart shut the hell up and allow my head to run the show. Even when I'm attached, I know it won't make ME happy (and the sad truth is that it wouldn't make W or D happy, either).
Yes, I've told GF. How could I not? I'm not a liar, I'm not going to live a double life, and I'm not going to hide things. GF knows exactly where I stand on everything. Yes, this makes her uncomfortable (on multiple levels. Scared that I will end up hurting her and going back to W. Also, I actually have been told that if she's ever the only reason I don't want to fix my M, that I need to go fix my M. Religious issue for her).
Still hanging in there. Six weeks until Divorce is final.
